And so grief is staged

• Despair depression had and have their day
• Family
• Friends
• Church service
• Help
• Yet nothing does

Denying and in my present dream
Soft kiss
So loving
So giving
Sometimes is all that keeps me going

No anger for me rather at when this kiss cannot prevent “I’ve had enough of this”

Here stomach tightening
loss of guilt
much more frightening

Only past bargains met by her so well
As so will I always tell

Aacceptance only just accepted
Total no longer claiming
Just in part remaining
On apt occasion wrenches back
To past joy of my persuasion
And having paid my due
Recalling love, humour, joy, déjà vu